mr...not

Der I am …my new job …my 1st job …lol ….as I sit der I often ponder as to why i am being paid …hehe …well if warming ur ass nd reading ur books whilst ur looking at hawt …I mean …hawwwttt guyz …is calld wrk den I think otherwise …lol….well in this blog id like to describe …wt a real wannabe guy is ….i mean seriously ….idz fun to analyse dese weird attitude ridden creatures …. :P ..well ill start wid his physical appearance he …over built ….nd ….relly id say ….has baby fat … den …he thnks he’s uber good looking …well his way of walking interprets dat ….he thumps his feet on da floor which I feel will be a reason for tremors ….someday ….or da 1st floor bldng to collapse …(I hope dey have insurance … :) …well…den he nears my desk ..i bluntly hand over da locker keys …without making eye-contact …pretending to be immersed in my book ,….well u c ….i don’t want him to get da slightest idea dat im smitten by his …uber un-hawt ….lol body….hehehe…. den dat attention seeking process starts ….he 1st …places his …30 gb I pod , iphone ..his car keys with some goth …key chain ….and den walks all da way to da locker …makes some hugeeee noise ….den collects all his stuff ….one by one ….again creating a lot of commotion …still tryng to catch my attention ….den walks over to his locker thrashes dem into it ….nd ….comes back ….picks up a pen ..signs his attendance record register ….with so much of zest! ….dat he’s almost torn da paper … :\ …. Den …he pretends to read all da names who’ve entered …thus wasting more tyme …nd finally ….after all da drama …still unsuccessful at his attempt …to .err…impress!! ….he walks …away ….probably thinking ..of me as a nerd ….what he does’nt know ..is dat the level he irritates ….da helll outta me …is compelling me to write a whole blog …on him …..well …as I write this ….id further conclude …da such ...hyper-active pain- in- da- ass male creatures exist all over da planet …well…all I suggest is …get ur act together ….nd start realizing dat ur acting like a foOL !!

mistakes .

i learnt the 2 most imp lessons of my life today...

1. LISTEN to a guy's advice in guy matters!!!! for gawdsss sake!!

2. listen to ur brains...if uve got sum ....nt ur bloody hart ....

but be stupid enuf to make mistakes , n smart enuf to learn frm dem....

da circle of human stupidity.

All my life I’ve had choices …back den I dint know ….the complexity of things ….how my stupid choices would determine …my existence, my sole being , im sure evri person s offered choices …how is person to know which 1 to make … I have pondered bout this question all my life ….i think ….id just comes to u….u decide the nature of ur existence …the course that ur life will lead into …. It was my choice not to give in….unconciously maybe …but …dat has helped ….today as I look back ..i can be proud….or maybe boast bout it ….dat I never entered relationships ….just coz evri1 was doing it ….i never slept around just to fit in …I never bot a levis ka jeans just coz …evr1 has it …nd evr1 shUd have it ….i never flaunted the cards in my wallet just to fit in …. I never visited places …just to boast bout it later ….the whole world …is rotating ….nd fooled by the concept of must haves’….don’t u c …idz a stupid trick played by …by the corporatism …

And the rest of the human clan …behaves like puppets …. When I look around …I c a world of followers ….ppl r in a constant battle to please others….were did the virtue of self –importance disappear … a person is loved by ppl if he respects them …LIStens to dem ….i ask y ??... y isn’t the person loved ,who has risen through the miseries …and attained everything by his determination and HIS will, not by the HELP of certain ppl , …infact such ppl are despised ….instead of being respected they are feared …people are evil. Every human being is pure evil. There is a self-interest involved in everything being done , then why is it feared why don’t ppl acknowledge it proudly …why is the world scared …by whom? Why ….through our childhood …we are taught by the mildly retarded teachers, that we HAVE to listen to our elders …we were slapped, punished ruined for asking questions …..or questioning their system ….but now vr all grown up …y are we still surrounded by things where doing things to please others is soooo important . why can’t we break the shackles ….and live a life …primarily to please oneself …with no regrets no guilt involved . a human being is the most intelligent creature in existence den y are we scared to recognize that.. comparing ourselves with another human being … another creature of superior intelligence…is the most awful..disgusting thing done to a person .i wish der is a tyme ...where evrione realises his worth ....

un-f0rgettABLE

life was easier when small,
thought id be happier when i grow up,
the innumerable things i wanted to be,
is blown away in smoke ,
as i linger here smoking weed,
happiness didn't like me,
never had a single friend,
never missed them all dat much,
had acquaintances,
but no feeling of belonginess,
ignorance was bliss when small,
lonesomeness didn't hurt that much ,
today im alone as i used to be,
only thing dats changed is that im all grown up.
why he left ,
i do not know,
he must've had his reasons ,
i understand though,
inadequasies gripped our loving souls,
never had let someone be so close before,
maybe dats coz the process was unbearable,
but im sure he'll be happy ,
wherever in the world he chose to be ,
without me.

da man in my life

evirithin bout him is beautiful, his smile,his soft hair , his cute looks, his handsomeness...gosh ...so many pretty thngs ...
he's like da best thng datz happnd to meh ...da best thng ever...cant think of living witout him ...his face is the 1st thng in da mornin i wanna
see evriday , makes my day!!! i love evirithn bout him ...da way he curls his fingers around mine , day way he smiles ...wen i luk at him...da way he cluthes onto to my t-shirt nd da way he makes those cute noises wen i sing to him , i luv carrying him around ....bt i have to be very careful ...he's relly tiny i tell u ....he's my little ball of cutenes..:P:P.i call him rolly-polly lol....coz wen i put him on my lap he turns into a lil ball...his tiny legs get curled up all the way to his head ....he sleeps peacefully wen i sing to him...he has entered my life nd relly turned me into a hapii person....he entered my life n relly changed it ... im much more happier dese days ... wen im out im impatient to return home ....impatient to hold him in my arms ...nd to play wid him ....to luk at his sparkiling lil face ...his eyes r like his mothers.... relly tiny ....nd wen he laughs ....it b'cums tinier ....lol....i luv showerin him wid kisses ....common ....u cant relly resist .....:P....i love his smell....he smells gud all da time...except wen he poops ...err....hehe ....he's da 1st tiny-tot whose diapers i have changed ....common i can do dat much fr my baby ....infact i can do nethn for ...him ...he's my lil angel ..who manages to bring a smile on my face ...netime ....all i hope dat ...he's here to stay ...unlike all dose ....who jus walked away frm ..me ...:| .....u noe idz true dat wen 1 person leaves u ..sum 1 else enters to take his place ....neva believed it till....my armaan/zalmai/jelly-belly/roli-poli/chocolate-chip-cookie ....hehehe lol.....entered my life ....:p....armaan was born on 26th november 2008 ....nd i can't thank ..da heavens enuf for sendin him for me ....:) ....idz lovely thing to watch him grw evriday ...ders sumthn new he does evriday ...his form of love is da purest ...his smile ...is da most genuine-est ...i lovee him nd he's da best .....

being nUn.e
She was a normal girl, evrithing about her was probably relly normal....normal face normal body type ....she wasn't all dat fabulous ......i mean even witout a trace of smile or makeup she was extraordianrily beautiful...bt she deserved a 2nd luk..nd she got dat .................... but not in a way a normal girl gets 2nd looks ...she got it ...only because she was wearing a brown uniform ..she was a nun after all she had to wear it ..like she had to all those innumerable stupid things which she was made to do ...like pray to a structure carved outta wood , it never spoke ..never responded ,never cried ,never laughed .....she was made to bow in frnt of a livingless piece of wood....I dont f***king get it ...! ....wen i was a kid i went to a convent , i hated da nuns , dey treated kids like dey were sum kindda disgrace to humankind...i mean dey're kids....kids r supposed to be loved...!! but no ..fr da nuns kids wer sum kinnda enemies ...i can't say all da nuns were crazy....der were a couple of nice ones .....but now i can relly figure ot y dose odr nuns always had a frown ....da simple reason behind dat is dat dey were (are) living a life ...trying to please odrs ...please human kind ...id makes no sense living a life of chastity ...i mean .....ders no harm in it .....bt wenever i luk at a nun ....id makes me feel sad fr dem in sum way .....like dey're jus nt happy ...wen u wish dem gud mornin ,...dey'll reply wid a smile ....bt da smile is neva genuine ...ders a whole lotta tragedy behing dat .....nd i relly cant get it .how a woman can possibly live witout ahem ....u noe wt im talkin bout ....i mean ...idz next to impossible ...(im not makin dis part up i watched it on discovery....i swear!)...bt ...chuck it i relly don't respect dem dat much neways ...coz ...frankly ...even i waned to b'cum a nun at sum point in my life ....or wud( im crazy bdw).... bt i know if i evrrr waned 2 b'cum a nun dat wud only be if im runnin away frm my responsibilities , my dreams , my friends , running away frm freedom ....most of da young galz bcum nuns coz sum of dem want to , sum are forced , sum r jus like i said running away ... ...well...i was once told ....no nuns r relly innocent ...dey kindda find ways to satisfy demselves....u noe wt i mean again !!...... nw im sho ur wondering ..y ive rittn dis stupid pointless ...blog....der r a numbr of reasons
1. idz almost 2 at night nd im nt sleepy .
2.i feel sad wen i luk at nuns .
3. i cant frget da nun i saw 2 yrs back .
4.ppl keep making stupid..stupid mistakes ....nd no matter hw much u try u just cannot erase dem off.....idz like a paint dats sticks to ur body fr da rest of life ....nd it cant be removed no mattr wt ...nd .....da whole point of my blog is ....all of us like da nuns ....have evil desires ...all da tyme ....bt ...dat dusnt make ur relly bad ..... coz like babu sir says .....ders no right nd no wrong ...!!

new year!!..2009..:P:P

da new year has arrived wid new tings to do ....we all go about making new year resolutions ..nd ...i have mine too ...
1.study ...now i relly have to wid 12th ka monstrous boards on da way...i gotta ...sadly enuf ...i have to score well ..nd get good marks to get into a gud COLLege blablabla nd stuff...odrwise my so called life wud be doomed .. :.....i wish i was just free to run away ,nd to roam da wrld ... :P ...
2.to get up early.. no seriously ...before 1 pm ...(like dats ever gonna happen )...lolz ....hehe ..
3.to paint moe often ....now now ...i don't want my talent to be wasted do i !! .
4.to learn da guitar , k man seriously my guitar is hanged on da wall ...feels like ids starin at me ...makin me feel guilty ..since id covered in dust ..lying dead ...w8tn to be played ...nearing idz death ...gosh!...gotta save it ....b4 id ceases living ... :(..
5.now since i joinin a ngo(at T.T)...to do sumthn worthwhile fr da society...no seriously ...i wud luv to ...
6. to learn a new sport or sumthn ...now i relly need to get my lazy ass do sumthn worthwhile ..i don'ttt wanna get Obesseee...:O ..so ..sum dance form maybe ...no just to get active ....type "A"...remembr ...!! ..no dont wry i relly can't imagine wearing stillettos nd being sqeezed in a tight dress where i luk like tire..nd i dont wanna be paired up wid sum noodle stick luking gay guy ....:P
7.to visit a new place ...nethn ...sum wer ive nevr been b4.:).....sumthn exciting....;)
8.to try nd forgive people...who have caused distress to my lil soul .....nd to kinna frget (like i'll eva be able to do dat ...)...no bt relly to just get ovr all da bitter memories.....:o :(
9.to try nd stay original ...nd not turn into a wannabe emo chick...or a barbie doll...:P...hehe...like dat will ever happn ..;p:P..
10. to be single... lolz....
chal yaar ony 10...enuf nah....as if im gonna change....:P:P