Seeking a friend for the end of the world! :P

Well watched this movie yesterday. Well what a refreshing piece of story. So calm, so pretty and well Steve carell is just such a huggable guy! I did not expect Keira knightly to be the lead actress, before watching the movie i thought it will have some random actress. When the movie began i thought oh! what a odd couple. But as the movie progressed, all i could think was what chemistry.
Such a subtle, simple movie, with so many underlying emotional complications yet so untangled. Well, i cried obviously because im such a cry baby. But those were happy tears. Well, even though the movie was fictional i felt it was human.
Well, here's my new favorite love song dedicated to me. And Yes Herb Albert is singing it just for me :) he means it and all. :D

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hrbCWIUhggA

happy post number 1

Came across these two fabulous things. Made my day. Pageviews told me there are people who actually read my blog :|. Well, i hope these make your day too, stranger who read my blog and thus knows my stupid secrets. 

Where is Vibha?

Endless hours of pain, hot tears, hiccups, pain i can no longer carry.
Till when?
How long do i punish myself?
I want to leave everything behind me like an experience.
An experience which i simply cannot find enough words to describe.
I want to move forward.
I do.
I really want to move on and find things that are waiting for me beyond this horizon.
You choti-ladki will be just a memory very soon.
I let you go.
I let you go.

Here's to that first beam of light.
A truly surreal write-up.
http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/the-soulmate-you-deserve/

The answer is blowin' in the wind

I like feathers.I like how they are so soft.
 I like to catch them before they touch the ground.
I like to look at windows.
The ones which have nests for sparrows,
The panes that reflect light
The ones that have broken glasses. The ones that are green. The ones that don't have grills.
I like to walk alone and think too many things
I like music any, the old kind of classics. Anything that touches my soul.
I like watching cartoons like hey arnolds and the wild thornberrys and cardcaptor sakura.
And I'm 21.
I like laughing too much so my cheeks hurt
Id like to play the guitar really well someday
I like to read my diaries just to see how much I've grown.
I have failed, been ridiculed, tried to kill myself too many times,
Maybe ill never be good enough for you.
I'll always be too-dark, too-short, too-dumb for your eyes,
But i guess i'm good enough for me
Maybe you are too shallow to see how wonderful i could be
You can soak yourself up in your snobbishness
And enjoy with your numerous girlfriends
I've got company till i die,
Apparently my soul-mate was me all this time! 

LOve-less?

How much do you love me? And Who's in charge?” - from eat.pray.love

We live in troubles. At no given point is a person rid of troubles. Momentary satisfaction of being okay with troubles can embalm us only when we  snap into reality and be aware of our present. 
Money troubles, 
weight troubles, 
bad skin troubles, 
cramps, 
insecurities, 
jealously, 
fears..i think all of these are different forms of troubles. But no trouble gets our attention the way love does. All our fears and insecurities seem so much magnified when in relation to the matters of love. Everything, all that we are is non-existential. Our minds are constantly thinking about that one person who you find interesting. Recently, when talking to akram i realized that no matter what kind of shit you are in, you will still be bothered if the person you like doesn't respond to your text. That guy who seemed to be interested never liked your picture on facebook. That girl who looked so hot and you were planning to ask out is now committed. Why do humans have a emotional side? What was the necessity. We are aware all the time. Aware that we broke hearts, said mean things, spread crappy rumors. Why don't we act on it? 
Why don't i act on it? 
I went to Norah Jones' concert yesterday! the most surreal day ever! well , i saw so many cute couples. Couples who looked so much in love. Guys who looked into their woman's eyes and seemed so lost in them! guys who held their ladyloves by their waists and walked around. I am 21, poor, pretty, wee bit talented, directionless about my career, broken hearted woman. 
My head is so judgmental  I'm so ashamed. I see someone, and i start mentally categorizing cool, uncool, rich, poor, the townie accent, date-worthy, non-date-worthy. Maybe these are my insecurities being projected on random people i meet. 
When will ever stop being so judgmental. 
Will i ever be able to open my heart to love. 
Will i ever be loved? 
Will he look into my eyes and be all lost? 
Will he put his arms around my waist? 
Will he kiss me for more than 2 secs? 

Mr.Choti ladki is now dating a very intelligent psychologist. I hope i move on too. 
I hope i find my answers.