un-f0rgettABLE

life was easier when small,
thought id be happier when i grow up,
the innumerable things i wanted to be,
is blown away in smoke ,
as i linger here smoking weed,
happiness didn't like me,
never had a single friend,
never missed them all dat much,
had acquaintances,
but no feeling of belonginess,
ignorance was bliss when small,
lonesomeness didn't hurt that much ,
today im alone as i used to be,
only thing dats changed is that im all grown up.
why he left ,
i do not know,
he must've had his reasons ,
i understand though,
inadequasies gripped our loving souls,
never had let someone be so close before,
maybe dats coz the process was unbearable,
but im sure he'll be happy ,
wherever in the world he chose to be ,
without me.

da man in my life

evirithin bout him is beautiful, his smile,his soft hair , his cute looks, his handsomeness...gosh ...so many pretty thngs ...
he's like da best thng datz happnd to meh ...da best thng ever...cant think of living witout him ...his face is the 1st thng in da mornin i wanna
see evriday , makes my day!!! i love evirithn bout him ...da way he curls his fingers around mine , day way he smiles ...wen i luk at him...da way he cluthes onto to my t-shirt nd da way he makes those cute noises wen i sing to him , i luv carrying him around ....bt i have to be very careful ...he's relly tiny i tell u ....he's my little ball of cutenes..:P:P.i call him rolly-polly lol....coz wen i put him on my lap he turns into a lil ball...his tiny legs get curled up all the way to his head ....he sleeps peacefully wen i sing to him...he has entered my life nd relly turned me into a hapii person....he entered my life n relly changed it ... im much more happier dese days ... wen im out im impatient to return home ....impatient to hold him in my arms ...nd to play wid him ....to luk at his sparkiling lil face ...his eyes r like his mothers.... relly tiny ....nd wen he laughs ....it b'cums tinier ....lol....i luv showerin him wid kisses ....common ....u cant relly resist .....:P....i love his smell....he smells gud all da time...except wen he poops ...err....hehe ....he's da 1st tiny-tot whose diapers i have changed ....common i can do dat much fr my baby ....infact i can do nethn for ...him ...he's my lil angel ..who manages to bring a smile on my face ...netime ....all i hope dat ...he's here to stay ...unlike all dose ....who jus walked away frm ..me ...:| .....u noe idz true dat wen 1 person leaves u ..sum 1 else enters to take his place ....neva believed it till....my armaan/zalmai/jelly-belly/roli-poli/chocolate-chip-cookie ....hehehe lol.....entered my life ....:p....armaan was born on 26th november 2008 ....nd i can't thank ..da heavens enuf for sendin him for me ....:) ....idz lovely thing to watch him grw evriday ...ders sumthn new he does evriday ...his form of love is da purest ...his smile ...is da most genuine-est ...i lovee him nd he's da best .....

being nUn.e
She was a normal girl, evrithing about her was probably relly normal....normal face normal body type ....she wasn't all dat fabulous ......i mean even witout a trace of smile or makeup she was extraordianrily beautiful...bt she deserved a 2nd luk..nd she got dat .................... but not in a way a normal girl gets 2nd looks ...she got it ...only because she was wearing a brown uniform ..she was a nun after all she had to wear it ..like she had to all those innumerable stupid things which she was made to do ...like pray to a structure carved outta wood , it never spoke ..never responded ,never cried ,never laughed .....she was made to bow in frnt of a livingless piece of wood....I dont f***king get it ...! ....wen i was a kid i went to a convent , i hated da nuns , dey treated kids like dey were sum kindda disgrace to humankind...i mean dey're kids....kids r supposed to be loved...!! but no ..fr da nuns kids wer sum kinnda enemies ...i can't say all da nuns were crazy....der were a couple of nice ones .....but now i can relly figure ot y dose odr nuns always had a frown ....da simple reason behind dat is dat dey were (are) living a life ...trying to please odrs ...please human kind ...id makes no sense living a life of chastity ...i mean .....ders no harm in it .....bt wenever i luk at a nun ....id makes me feel sad fr dem in sum way .....like dey're jus nt happy ...wen u wish dem gud mornin ,...dey'll reply wid a smile ....bt da smile is neva genuine ...ders a whole lotta tragedy behing dat .....nd i relly cant get it .how a woman can possibly live witout ahem ....u noe wt im talkin bout ....i mean ...idz next to impossible ...(im not makin dis part up i watched it on discovery....i swear!)...bt ...chuck it i relly don't respect dem dat much neways ...coz ...frankly ...even i waned to b'cum a nun at sum point in my life ....or wud( im crazy bdw).... bt i know if i evrrr waned 2 b'cum a nun dat wud only be if im runnin away frm my responsibilities , my dreams , my friends , running away frm freedom ....most of da young galz bcum nuns coz sum of dem want to , sum are forced , sum r jus like i said running away ... ...well...i was once told ....no nuns r relly innocent ...dey kindda find ways to satisfy demselves....u noe wt i mean again !!...... nw im sho ur wondering ..y ive rittn dis stupid pointless ...blog....der r a numbr of reasons
1. idz almost 2 at night nd im nt sleepy .
2.i feel sad wen i luk at nuns .
3. i cant frget da nun i saw 2 yrs back .
4.ppl keep making stupid..stupid mistakes ....nd no matter hw much u try u just cannot erase dem off.....idz like a paint dats sticks to ur body fr da rest of life ....nd it cant be removed no mattr wt ...nd .....da whole point of my blog is ....all of us like da nuns ....have evil desires ...all da tyme ....bt ...dat dusnt make ur relly bad ..... coz like babu sir says .....ders no right nd no wrong ...!!