March 28th 2010

So often u r far,
So rare u r close,
People who r special UR one of those,
Ur very presence makes me smile,
Happiness comes to me in bunches n pile,
Time spent with u passes in a while,
Without u even the closest distance looks like crossing the Nile,
Ur an integral part of me,
Without u i'm a lock without a key,
Don't ever leave me is my pray to thee,
Once together we'll turn from single to we,
Life was never so good before,
Happiness i always find standing at my door,
Love is what i can give to core,
my heart is true and my love all pure...

.....special beings......

okay b4 people read the following poem , i'd like to mention it ....that i read it in chicken soup .......yea rte so churai hui poem hai ... :P....well any ways ...i read it .....nd i loved it .... the poetess has written this poem when she came across a beautiful elm tree which stood alone on a big plane ground .....and it is significant of so many things .....she has written the poem beautifully ...and i feel it deserves to be on this page....

She stands alone , both tall and true
The perfect picture of solitude
The soul of a woman encased in bark
With limbs that move in a majestic arc
Alone she's faced the storms of life
The wind and rain, disease and strife
Others gave up , but no, not she
And there she stands for all to see
She' had her share of troubles and woes
But she made it through , and still she grows
Like her i too know grief and pain
I've faced the wind, I've felt the rain
And like her too , i still stand tall
Though life may beat me , i will not fall
It may throw punches, i may take a blow
But in the end i too shall grow
Each storm i weather increases my strength
And beneath this skin, my soul's to thank
The elm and i , we know what to do
We count on ourselves , and make it through.


..well.....this poem reminds me of ....my awesome friends ...and my mom...and some parts of me ......these powerful women always manage to enthrall me with their courage beauty and grace ....i get to learn so much from all of them ...cheers to woman hood .....nupz , peryy usshe , nadee

-with 'louvee baa' :P

this fr u guys...

The perfect kiss

Look at me,
Point your lashes down,
Look at my face,
You can see my eyes,
Look a bit closer and you can see my soul,
It is over brimming from your love,
I can’t stop smiling.

Touch my smooth skin,
You find me hesitating; don’t give up, hold tighter,
Keep me from falling,
Embrace me with all your love,
Promise me you’ll protect me,
I’m probably shaking,
You will sense my uncertainty,
But I’m waiting.

Close your eyes,
Place your lips against mine,
And feel me,
Feel the subtle passion within me,
The love evolved within me is yours,
Don’t worry about it not being perfect,
All I’m glad is that it happened.

little mr. caterpillar

Little Mr. caterpillar
Came into my life

Little Mr. caterpillar
Had a great smile

Little Mr. caterpillar
claimed to be mine

Little Mr. caterpillar
Was a shade of bottle green

Little Mr. caterpillar
All he ate was juicy green leaves

Little Mr. caterpillar
Was a mighty ole' man

Little Mr. caterpillar
he had a handsome face to be recognized

Little Mr. caterpillar
Made my life alright

Little Mr. caterpillar
Was my only sunshine

....

What we choose to ignore ...
was that he was a pretty butterfly

Who would bring out colors of the rainbow
And fly!

And all i was a stupid moth,
whose life was nothing but plain black and white!

Together we made a awful sight!

So i packed my bag and walked away alright!

new yearr!! again...

well....well.... my new year has come .. toh ...its time for new resolutions ..!

1 . to ....work hard ....in whatever thing i choose to make my career ...
2. i need to learn some cooking !....no seriously ......i just need to ....
3. to travel....again i feel i havnt explored the world as much as i should ...
4. to learn to be rational ...maybe ........
5. to forgive and forget .... ( again....like dats ever gonna happen)
6 . to find my mr.right guy :P :P .. ... im assuming he'z out there sumwer .... :O ...
7 . to learn a new thing evrday !
8 . to learn to paint my nails properly..
9 . to learn to accept myself and other people the way they are.....
10. to let go off my stereotypes
11. to figure what my favourite color is exactly! ...
1 2.... to make the most of this year...... !!

me- a new revelation

wEll ..idz been a long time i dint post ...

i guess i was in my thinking mode ...
a lot of things caused trouble ...bt now i am fine ...
i guess there a wrong things ...bt maybe i am worrying too much...
why cant i seem to stop worrying about things ...
well over the past few days a lot of things myths cleared up

the number 1 myth - all guys are assholes

hehe ....im glad i realized this ...two of very close best friends are guys , they help me to maintain my faith in the so-called guy clan .. i can be lesser of a feminist now ...thanks ...u 2... and well.. somehow ...magically ....my X apologized for his wrongdoings ...n guess wot ..i forgave him ...no really ... i have no hatred ....whatsoever.. really no drive to push him from a 18 storied building or even to stab him to death .. lol..:P

The number 2 myth - i have stage fear

lol....i don't know why i build all walls of insecurities around me .. :P i had a tiny speech ...in my stupid coll... i had to say stuff on the mike in front of maybe 200 ppl ...nd guess wt i was confident as hell... nd everyone seemed to like me ... no relli ...they applauded nd all ...hehe .. :P

the number 3 myth - i will never stop biting my nails

i did stop ...now that i've discovered my new found interest in painting them regularly with all kind of striking colours :P ...hehe ... k i have nice nails now .. ;)

the number 4 myth - all people are crazy ...

well....this one still remains a myth ...nd guess will continue to remain ... ;)

life ...as it is...

which asshole said life is easy ....whoever said at must be so so doped up ....that they cudnt thnk right ...

as per me ....life is a constant battle from the day u wer born to the day you will die ...

it is a constant phase of fighting against people ...

what is god .....an illusion created by human beings to hope that there is something out der to help ...or may be save... but ...

the bitter truth is that there is no human who has the balls to acknowledge the fact there's no one out der absolutely no body ....

v r born alone ....v live alone and v are dead alone ....

i often think to myself what a crazy person i was to think.....that things are mine....

things like 'my family ' ...my friends' ...my clothes ....my body .....absolutely nuthn is mine ...

i stand no were ....i believe in nuthn .....

i once beilieved in the ayn rand gibberish ....i truly really believed that i can adress myself as I " ......i have enough ego and self respect ...im free and nobody controls me ....

why did i forget that v all are complete slaves ....

slaves who are bounded by time ....

if god loved us ....or even existed ...

why did he make us do terrible things ....then why did he create time ....something which cannot be reversed ...

why do v have a constant need to likable .....

well , i tried ....ND what did i get in return ...hatred , hurt , pain...character assassination ..

i learnt one thing in life .....

when you're in trouble nobody will stick to u....they'll just abandon you ...

its like all your so-called family ...is out on a mission to practically screw your life...

its like they get some sadistic pleasrue in screwing your case big time .....

what is difference between sane people and insane people ......personally i prefer the insane ones ......they look more sensible to me ...

where do i stand??? ....am i on the verge of losing my mind ....or have i totally lost it....

i dont find meaning in being happy ....

i dont find sense in wearing good clothes ....

i dont find sense in human interaction ....

alll people love talking bad about other people ....

alll people no matter how nice they appear are ...just on a mission to royally fuck some1 else .....for no apparent reason .....

we all hold on to grudges .....we all hate ...we all curse and we all....are bad .....

when i turn pages of mythology and history books ....i often find that , the so-called "bad guys " were more moral than the so -called "hero " .....

who decides what is good and bad ...

why are all people so judgemental ??????....

why do we love screwing other people ....when our own life is shyt ....

why do we love crticising and giving opinions when not asked ...

when a girl in my class walks upto me ...and says ....my Ur painting ...is sooo bad ...idz totally bulshyt ..... i just dont find it neccessary to turn back and say mind ur own bussiness bitch !!!.....coz ....i simply dont care ....

all my life .....i was a cheerful person ..very optimistic, about my life ....i always dedicided ...that ill be an obsever ...ill simply observe my life from far ...nd never take nethn to heart ...coz evrythng will just pass.......i decided ....that the simplest way to solve problems between human relations ..,.is to ....Talk .....but y the hell is that soooooooo impossible ....

i cant hate people ....i just cant ...but i cant seem to love them also ....

i have no1 ...

i have adjusted to it ....

i packed my bagpack once ....i almost caught a train to ...go somwer far far away ..... wer no1 asked questions , talked bad about me ....no1 judged the way i looked ..

but i dint seem to have the balls to do that ....

i still dont know y ...

day in and day out ....im drifting into my own little space...

i find it hard to smile ....or even be happy ...

i never relly wanted money ... but a owe a lot of it ...to a lot of people ....

i hope ill be able to pay it back ..b4 i die ...

i never wanted to cause harm ...

i still practise self control and will always will....

but when u do that ...all people seem to have a mission to test ur patience ...

i end my blog ...~~~ wishing good luck and prosperity to all ~~~ live .

P.S - bob marley was stupid enough to thnk that he cud change the world ... i did too ....nd i loose .