March 28th 2010....

The day is particularly significant.
That is the day he asked me out finally.. wrote a silly little poem and well made magic.
He is gone now.. i don't truly know when i will be able to accept that. maybe never.
I drove him away since he did not fulfill the long list of requirements he was supposed to fulfill.
He was the guy so he had to be perfect. Right?
No.He was not.
He neve called. Never texted back.Broke all the promises. Never took me to meet his friends. Made me cry. Broke my heart.
love doesn't exist! .. I have gotten over other guys i believed i was in love with..Right?
Wrong.
I had unrealistic expectations.
I wasn't patient.
I coudn't be the perfect girlfriend.
I lost him .
It will probably take me years to get over him.
He deserves to be happy.
I hope he will be ...
I'll love you.
MR. Perfect.

the lost loss

Well... its been a year since i have posted something at all. I wonder why i stopped. I can't even begin to mentione the stupid mistakes i have made. I have deliberately kicked the love of my life -out of my life. I want it to remain that way, till i figure out my life on my own. Nothing major has happened in my life apart from the fact that i have had plenty of dissappointments and well new unexpected situtations.
Learnt a lot. Till next i guess i'll just eat.pray and love.


*Mr. bumblebee be happy!