just so frustrated !!!

okay ....so bout my future i had put a lot of thought into in ....into what my profession will be ... well .....on some recommendations i decided ill pursue commercial arts , k so i got admissions into sophia's .. k ill gladly list down 10 things i hate bout dis particular college ....
1. idz a GALS college .....evrytime i walk down the college lane , i feel disgusted watchng lesbians cuddle up .... k i am not homo phobic .... im just not comfortable ...
2. i dont like guys ... but in the class ...idz so boring i sometimes feel der has to be some type of loser guys to light up the atmosphere at least!
3. the language!!!evri f****** person speaks in marathi !!!
or even bettr gujurathi ......da languages r nice ....no offense bt shut up in the class fr heavens sake !!
4. my professors .... oh...hw could i even start about them ....or their absolute inability to recognize art .....i hate them , i despise them ...and evrytime they tell me to throw my wrk in the dustbin i feel like pushng them out of the window .

i have like 3 profs. ill glady describe them
1. mr macchar ...as ive termed him .....hez a complete pest .....and a pain in da a**
2.dard-e-disco .......he has long hair which he's more concerned of..than the students ...he sings lame hindi songs and cracks non-humorous jokes on which the slut-chicks will laugh horribly .. i cud just roll out and act dead !!
3. crazy bitch ..my only female prof ......shes absolutely crazy ....she'll speak utter rubbish in the class and expects us to reply or entertain ......
an example .... maine nah 1 din ek ladki se pucha ...tum smoke karti ho kya ....and usne haan bola .....mai toh itnii shoooockkk ho gyi ......!!!! lol i meannnn wdf !!! ....talk art in the art class lady .....let the gal smoke in peace !!! ..... k .....

so this is wt my life is doin to me ....apart frm other 10 thousand things practically out to screw my life ...these are just a tiny glimpse ..

undeserving !

i dono y i wasted my time in apologising or even feeling all guilty bout things , ive done to people :\.....well after a hugee session with my sis (my therapist as i gladly label hr) gave me girl talk on how i should forgive , forget and apologise and move onnn n all , thus trying to find my inner peace ...well i took the first step of apologising .... :| ...seems like thngs went a lil out of track ....i apologised to many people ....(no i relly did ) ......sent like a lotta texts nd stuff.....nd guess wt i get in return ...a whole lot of character assassination !!! how ungrateful :| ...feelz like going and killing the moron ......well...the next step was to forgive .... bt .....seems like i cant turn into a saintlike human being after all .....well......my inner peace ...ahem ....seems like somethng distant to me .... hw can people just be soo.....mean ! ..... i mean wdf ....i kept my ego aside to say sry .... !!! well.....such kind schmucks need to b slapped!! ....or even kicked and bruised ......hmmm.......well rte now bashing about him makes me feel bettr ..!! i shudve known .....such kind of guys who ony noe to treat women as sex objects never deserve a apology even though u do sumthn to hurt them ...welll ive figured da jackasses deserve it!! every bit of it .... :x :X