sex and the city??

I am obsessed with the television show sex and the city. Till date i have downloaded like 3 seasons of the show. Im hooked!. Well i can't run home to watch the episodes again and again. The reason i love this show is pretty obvious.
1. This show is like a bible for anthropologists! seriously it has serious insights into the female brain!
2. i could (god know what lies in future) but i could never get laid that much :\
3. Its my secret goal that i want to be as thin and fabulous looking like them when im in 34s/40s.
4. It gives me a lot of insight into men. Its not like i have dated a huge army .. just that id like to know what the rivals are like in reality.
5. Well and the other tiny thing is that .. i think choti ladki aka the love of my life aka the asshole who ruined my life is. ..well err BIG. :| .. whatever ! ...
6. Also i think samantha is really unrealistic.. i mean in india.. im pretty sure i'd never meet a woman that free i could put it as promiscuous but hey ! its samantha we're talking about!
7. In mumbai no matter how beautiful i become i'd never find so many dates. (seriously after what vaibhav did to my self-confidence i'd be lucky if i ever find a date :|).
8. I have become convinced that no matter how talented, smart , beautiful a woman is there will always be a guy who will treat her like total crap. ... (this is from personal experience..
9. all our life we look for soul mates .. but hey they are right in front of you all the time .. you girlfriends!! ... perry, usshe, nupar, nadde r people who are always there for me !! no matter what....

I hope to have a sensible relationship someday!! :\ .. im not pinning my hopes on that though...
i'll find a sperm donor someday and i'll be rich and i won't need a husband!!! ..
bye for now :)

the cult movie that coudn't be.

I watched rockstar today. The much anticipated movie. it released today 11.11.11 . The movie was different not something you expected out of bollywood. Ranbir kapoor has yet again proved that he has acting skills. His passion for acting overshadows his otherwise yucky personality. Nargis fakri was eye-candy and nothing more. The story was a plain old (non-existent unreliastic love story). The passion that the character jordan had was an inspiration to me. The bold crazy fun loving character of heer works well. I am not a big fan of ranbir kapoor but must say , this guy is going to give the older actors a run for their money. He is after all the prince charming of bollywood. Imtiaz ali has done a good job. I liked all his movies bdw. Also for the music, it seemed enchanting. At first i never understood why mohit chauhan sung for ranbir i felt his voice never suited ranbir. But, then rahman's unconventional soundtrack and non-slang-hindi lyrics do the trick! It took time for the music and the lyrics to sink in, but i guess im a fan. However i did wonder why none of the hardcore indian bands were approached for making the music of rockstar it is after all a rock' movie..right? ... Anyways that could be expected out of anurag kashyap and not imtiaz ali. Well whatever it is , i didn't regret spending my 100 bucks to watch ranbir on-screen. I guess i have a new found respect for the Actor ranbir kapoor.
I went with my coll buddies and kaveri ma'am also came with us.

March 28th 2010....

The day is particularly significant.
That is the day he asked me out finally.. wrote a silly little poem and well made magic.
He is gone now.. i don't truly know when i will be able to accept that. maybe never.
I drove him away since he did not fulfill the long list of requirements he was supposed to fulfill.
He was the guy so he had to be perfect. Right?
No.He was not.
He neve called. Never texted back.Broke all the promises. Never took me to meet his friends. Made me cry. Broke my heart.
love doesn't exist! .. I have gotten over other guys i believed i was in love with..Right?
Wrong.
I had unrealistic expectations.
I wasn't patient.
I coudn't be the perfect girlfriend.
I lost him .
It will probably take me years to get over him.
He deserves to be happy.
I hope he will be ...
I'll love you.
MR. Perfect.

the lost loss

Well... its been a year since i have posted something at all. I wonder why i stopped. I can't even begin to mentione the stupid mistakes i have made. I have deliberately kicked the love of my life -out of my life. I want it to remain that way, till i figure out my life on my own. Nothing major has happened in my life apart from the fact that i have had plenty of dissappointments and well new unexpected situtations.
Learnt a lot. Till next i guess i'll just eat.pray and love.


*Mr. bumblebee be happy!

my thoughts...

Throughout this life , you simply have to figure out how to protect yourself from the ten thousand people who are practically out to screw you........

Also the ability to recognize friends in enemies ,

To realize not every person means you harm ,
They just want you dead.

don't believe everything somebody says to you,

They probably have a very good selfish gain behind your downfall ,

Friends will drift away when they find girlfriends/boyfriends

so you better find yourself one.

Be smart , be single.


until now , my brain only manufactured these, ill come with more as and when time comes.....

March 28th 2010

So often u r far,
So rare u r close,
People who r special UR one of those,
Ur very presence makes me smile,
Happiness comes to me in bunches n pile,
Time spent with u passes in a while,
Without u even the closest distance looks like crossing the Nile,
Ur an integral part of me,
Without u i'm a lock without a key,
Don't ever leave me is my pray to thee,
Once together we'll turn from single to we,
Life was never so good before,
Happiness i always find standing at my door,
Love is what i can give to core,
my heart is true and my love all pure...

.....special beings......

okay b4 people read the following poem , i'd like to mention it ....that i read it in chicken soup .......yea rte so churai hui poem hai ... :P....well any ways ...i read it .....nd i loved it .... the poetess has written this poem when she came across a beautiful elm tree which stood alone on a big plane ground .....and it is significant of so many things .....she has written the poem beautifully ...and i feel it deserves to be on this page....

She stands alone , both tall and true
The perfect picture of solitude
The soul of a woman encased in bark
With limbs that move in a majestic arc
Alone she's faced the storms of life
The wind and rain, disease and strife
Others gave up , but no, not she
And there she stands for all to see
She' had her share of troubles and woes
But she made it through , and still she grows
Like her i too know grief and pain
I've faced the wind, I've felt the rain
And like her too , i still stand tall
Though life may beat me , i will not fall
It may throw punches, i may take a blow
But in the end i too shall grow
Each storm i weather increases my strength
And beneath this skin, my soul's to thank
The elm and i , we know what to do
We count on ourselves , and make it through.


..well.....this poem reminds me of ....my awesome friends ...and my mom...and some parts of me ......these powerful women always manage to enthrall me with their courage beauty and grace ....i get to learn so much from all of them ...cheers to woman hood .....nupz , peryy usshe , nadee

-with 'louvee baa' :P

this fr u guys...